Are you one of those people who start a novel and take a peek at the ending? Maybe closer to my M.O., is choosing movies (at least a majority of them) that simply have a happy ending. I want to know that everything will end up alright. Perhaps this is world news coverage fatigue, but at any rate, knowing that I will have the happy ending is where I go and play.
But what about life? You know, the real thing. You might think that after the above I would be dead on arrival. And yet. I am not. Does that mean that I have found the special happy pill? No. And. Yes. However, it's not a pill. It's more like awareness of a journey. A journey that I slip and fall occasionally, lose my way, get tired, but also get back up, stop for rest, enjoy the vista, play on the hillside, regain my path and well, have a fun along the way.
This awareness is found in three small steps - stillness, listening and observing. It is these three steps that take me to a deeper truth that can't be found in the noise swirling around me. My family's spring break was a mishmash of various directions - taking my daughter on college visits, engaging in a local business entrepreneurial class and celebrating my mom's 75th birthday. Of course, looking back on this list to be accomplished in 3 different states might lead someone to say, "Too Much". But then, leading a life in the "AND" of a professional life, family life and personal life can sometimes get off track when I stop moving from a place of awareness that takes me to my truth.
Fast forward to about week and a half in, and I was toast. I had let go of pretty much all three of my steps. The beautiful part, however, was feeling the resulting pain and letting it guide me back to my awareness. Moving back into stillness found in my early morning, took me into listening to my life. Many thoughts came, but by observing them and just letting them move on through, I found myself backing into my deeper voice of love, gentleness and healing.
Claim your time of stillness whether it is in the early morning hours with a cup of coffee, going for a walk or claiming journaling time before you start your work day. Use the time to be with yourself, feeling your amazing body that you are privileged to have and just breathe. As you relax into yourself, listen. Yes thoughts, like clouds in the sky, will come. Let them and let them keep on going! Observe what is going by. Begin to notice the tape that might be playing and how the repeat button is on constant. In the noticing, comes the awareness of the existence of your deeper self that is listening and observing, That is your beginning. It is this place, the place of awareness, that will lead you to your deeper truth.